Human life is so fragile yet so often taken for granted. When you go through a miscarriage, you suddenly have this awareness of how precious life really is. Growing another human being inside of your own body truly is an act of God, but after losing a baby of your own you wonder how your body will ever move on. It’s like you’ve lost a piece of your heart and you don’t know how you can recover. When I miscarried for the first time, I wrote down a list of questions that kept going through my mind. Will I ever be able to have kids, how long till I can try again, is something wrong with my body? Fear of the unknown settled in and I felt as though I could cry all day long and drown in my own sorrow. But then I pressed into the One who sets us free. I took my list of fears and placed them at the feet of Jesus. In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus says, “Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light.” You see, God did not intend for us to carry the heavy things of this world. When you give Him the fear, sorrow and pain of losing a baby, you will find rest in Him.

After giving Jesus our fears and pain, we have to learn to trust His plan. My journey of healing couldn’t occur if I was still holding onto control. Whether that control was my fears or even the thought that I controlled my fertility in any way. True healing came when I decided to give what I was struggling with to God and then actively decide every day that I trust Him and His plan for my life. This journey of trusting God after you’ve lost a baby may not be instantaneous, but when we continually give over our fears, our list, the pain, we will see that Jesus brings us true peace and rest and that we can rejoice in knowing that our Savior has a good plan for us.

Write down a list of five to ten verses that speak directly to your fears in this season. When you feel those fears creeping in, speak them overself as the truth of God’s word.